我想我真的怕安静

afterall, i still scared of lonely! i still scared of being alone. from monday to friday, we met twice but only few hours. we chatted like a few minutes not even an hour. almost everyday hit 6pm, the first message of mine will be "end work already"? patiently waited till 6pm. break time no sms, no calls! nothing. at night, tired need to sleep. between 12.30am to 1.30am sleeping time. normally at this timing, calling each other to chat. however, everything changes. perhaps i am not used to it. never will i used to it. i been searching for things to occupy my time. watch shows that i have watched before but still, i am not used it afterall. how am i going to use to it? until school reopen, when studies keep me occuppied? or when my attachment starts? lesser time for each other?

i am still not used to it afterall.

school, please keep me occuppied! no time for each other the best i guess :'(